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My smile is just a smile
It holds no true emotion behind it
It's an act,
So that everyone will leave me alone
I wish I could cry,
Cry in front of everyone,
But I can't.
I know that
I always have
I always will
I can't show them just how bad it is
How badly I need treatment
How badly I need SOME sort of help...
But how will they understand?
They won't
They never have
Never will
They said I didn't need meds
But that was just because of an act
They don't know how I feel underneath
How dead I feel
How dead I've felt
I cry
Everyday
If not physically,
Then mentally
I don't choose to
But I do
It's beyond my control
How I wish it wasn't
I can't go on like this
Feeling complete hopelessness
I told myself I wouldn't let it get this bad
I wouldn't let you affect me that badly
But it's worse
I see you
I still talk to you
It's putting me through torture
Torture that I can't bear
It's putting the daily smile on my face
But it will forever be,
Simply tortured
It holds no true emotion behind it
It's an act,
So that everyone will leave me alone
I wish I could cry,
Cry in front of everyone,
But I can't.
I know that
I always have
I always will
I can't show them just how bad it is
How badly I need treatment
How badly I need SOME sort of help...
But how will they understand?
They won't
They never have
Never will
They said I didn't need meds
But that was just because of an act
They don't know how I feel underneath
How dead I feel
How dead I've felt
I cry
Everyday
If not physically,
Then mentally
I don't choose to
But I do
It's beyond my control
How I wish it wasn't
I can't go on like this
Feeling complete hopelessness
I told myself I wouldn't let it get this bad
I wouldn't let you affect me that badly
But it's worse
I see you
I still talk to you
It's putting me through torture
Torture that I can't bear
It's putting the daily smile on my face
But it will forever be,
Simply tortured
Literature
Lies Can Be Simple
She looks at me fearlessly.
"I'm glad we're not in love."
I watch her eyes. She blinks.
"Who are you trying to convince?"
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and she'll say she's okay
but really she's a mess, a deep dark mess all scattered around like so many fallen leaves crunching c r u n c h i n g as she steps on them. And she'll tell you she's just tired --no she isn't lying, it's what she tells herself too-- but when the razor blade is in her hand it doesn't really look that way anymore, does it? [No it doesn't, this is when you're supposed to close your eyes and stop looking stop looking stop looking for your own fucking good please just stop looking.] Yes, this is when you're supposed to not notice how much of a complete wreck she is, this is when you're supposed to bask in the illusion that yeah, she cuts herself
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Sincerely, Hurt
Dear body,
Can you try to be beautiful? I'd like to
smile in the mirror sometime.
Dear brain,
Stop overthinking everything. Let Heart
make some decisions.
Dear eyes,
Don't look into his. They'll draw you in
only to make you cry in the end.
Dear heart,
Hang in there. I'll find someone to put
you back together for good this time.
Sincerely,
Ugly, Stressed, Tattered,
and Broken.
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Was talking to my friend. Helped a LOT. Then this came. I knew I had to write. I didn't know what. He was still talking to me, but I just brought up Word and started typing. I don't even know what I wrote. That's not a joke. All I know is when I was scrolling through it catching glimpses I started crying and I was crying the entire time I was writing it. Except the ending, which I don't really like.
Comments.Critique much appreciated! Any kind...seriously
Comments.Critique much appreciated! Any kind...seriously
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This really struck a chord with me too. If my mother wasn't in the room.. I'd be in the same position. =/